It's Been a Hard Week

It has definetly been a rough week for me, especially after having such a good week the week before. Friday was by far the hardest day of the week. First of all it snowed! And I am not taking just a flurry -- we got about 4-6 inches!! So that alone was not a good day to start the day. Second we had to drive Cora to Bedford for her EEG and Nuerologist appointment. To say that her EEG was the most horrific thing I have had to do to a child is an understatement!! It was bad, really bad.... We had to velcro her to the table and them I had to hold her head so that they could measure and place all of the electrodes -- mind you she was totally freaking out during the whole thing! Apparently she could be heard in the waiting room on the other side of the building!! Even just thinking about it is upsetting me four days later.... Eventually they were able to run the test, which came back normal. But when we met with the Nuerologist and chatted about some of our concerns, the schools concerns, and then putting the seizures in the mix, he is going to give her a provisional Autism diagnosis.
So my question is when do I catch a break? I mean isn't one child with Autism enough for one family to deal with? Why do I have two? So as you can see I still haven't over come my why me stage... I'm working on it, really I am. I know in my head that Heaven;y Father wouldn't give me more than I can handle and that all trials are great blessings in the end....but my heart hasn't accepted that yet! It took me a little while to accept it with Aidan also, so I know I will get there! I guess it is hard for every parent when they find out that something is wrong with their child. Who knows, maybe that is why I was prompted to go back to school and become a nurse -- maybe my education will help me to better care for my children as they age?!?
It's just tough! But we are strong and I know in myheart that we will get through it and we will come out stronger in the end from it!!!

I GOT IN!!!

Well it is official, I GOT IN!!! Into the Nursing program at NECC of course!! What a relief, there is one less thing I have to worry about! Of course, there is a list of other things that I have to do know like track down all of my immunizations, get a physical, get certified in Rescue CPR -- you know all the easy stuff.....hahaha. I feel so blessed to have been accepted into the program, since about 400 people applied for just 80 spots....
To say that I am excited is an understatement! It will be interesting to see who else in my anatomy class, if any, were excepted -- we are on spring break now so I will have to wait till next week. YEAH ME!!!

Cora's First Day

So today was Cora's first day of preschool, I'm sure I was more nervous than she was. But for all of my nervousness, she was excited to get on the bus and sith a big smile told me bye as I got off the bus. I would be lying to say that I didn't have a tear in my eye when that bus pulled away.... after all she just turned 3 yesterday!
I told Jesse last night that I would be surpriesed if she was awake when the bus brought her home, well I was wrong she was awake and she was smiling as she was sitting next to Aidan. She came in the house had some grapes and juice and promptly crawled up into my lap and the next thing I know she was snoring away -- out cold -- Haylee couldn't even wake her for a good hour!!
Atleast she went without incident and hopefully she had a good time and enjoyed her day! School has been amazing for Aidan -- hopefully it will do the same for Cora!

Rain

It's raining, need I say more.
I am not a big rain fan, it makes the day so gloomy and yucky! And my van doesn't run as well in the rain. Jesse just called from Dominos to tell me that the van is running "funny" -- so I of course asked how is it running "funny" (why do I even bother - I know the answer that I'm going to get) "I don't know, funny. It kinda does this shaky thing." OK, I give up -- know he is at work I am at home -- what am I supposed to do?!?!
Oh we got the kids some bunk beds today. To say that Aidan was excited is an understatement! He wanted to help put it together and he couldn't wait to start climbing all over it! We will see how long it takes for someone to fall out of it....

Sickness...

Why is it when I am sick, I still have to get up everyday and take care of the kids all day long -- but when Jesse is sick he gets to come home from work and crawl into bed and stay there all day! There seems to be some injustice there, don't you think? I have also noticed that men are very whinny when they are sick! I just want to say -- GET OVER IT! Take some pepto and some tylenol and suck it up like I did!!! But I know that that is not very compassionate and I need to work on that; which is why I have bit my tongue all day and just let Jesse mope and sleep. Someday I'll get to sleep all day uniterupted right?

Did I get in?

So this is the month....this is the month that I find out if I got into the nursing program at school. I know that I have worked hard to keep my GPA up and I know that I studied for months for the TEAS exam, but I am stil nervous! They said that we should know by the end of the month...but for those who know me know that I am not the most patient person, so waiting till the end of the month will be very difficult! Although I should say the the program is highly competitive! The last I hear there wer 450 applications for 80 spots in the program!!! So the odds are not in my favor. I am going to try and let it go, I know in my brain that if it is in the Lord's plan for me that my fussing over it will not have any barring on it -- but like I said I am not that patient! Oh, well.... here's hoping the month goes by quickly!

Kiddos

I know that some family may look at this and I thought that you all may want to see some of the more recent pictures of the little love bugs!!! My friend Brittany took these...

School Vacations

Who ever came up with the concept of school vacation obviously did not have any children! I truely love my children and I love to spend time with them and play with them....But school vacation throws me for a loop!! Aidan thinks he is needs to be the center of attention all the time, oh wait so does COra and Haylee....
Atleast when Aidan is in school I have a shot at getting things done while the girls are sleeping. When school is out nothing, I repeat nothing gets done and it drives me crazy!!! Not to mention, that by day two of vacation all three kids are at each other's throats...
Thank heaven's that the bus will be arriving on Monday at 8:45! Is it bad that I wish I could close my eyes and have it be Monday at 8:46?